Trimming Down

It has been an interesting week.

I have thought a lot about my life lately.

And I have decided that life needs some trimming down.

I'm starting with Facebook. I have noticed, in the last few months particularly, that Facebook has become a major contributor to me feeling more miserable about life than I want to feel. I have pondered leaving it altogether, but just haven't yet. And now I know I am going to pare it down and not be involved with it so much anymore.

The thing is, my Facebook News Feed bombards me with loads of information about people (and their ideas) that ranges from mildly annoying to deeply disturbing. It's not just the Feed and it's not just my "friends"--it's their friends, commenting on threads and saying things that really bother me and cause my inner world to focus on stupid bull shit that I really don't need. The stupid bull shit isn't just bull shit, it's stuff that tends to make me really emotional (because that's how I am) and before I know it...my day is ruined, or at least negatively altered, by some pseudo-cyberworld interactions with strangers who I don't give a rat's ass about!!

Sigh.

I have come to the conclusion that social media is not a positive thing. For me, at least. I really want to be either a) Alone with my thoughts and doing something productive (or, at least, just pausing in life without stimulation, or b) In the *real* company of others, doing things that really matter.

And then there is the straight fact that Facebook just leaves me feeling empty and bad about myself. The short quips about one's status tend towards either bitching-and-moaning about the daily grind (yawn) or those who constantly express their desire to be positive about how wonderful their life is (yawn). Either way, it's empty and dissatisfying. There is also the heavy emphasis on family, one's children, one's 9-5 job (and TGIF shit that I hate reading, because it doesn't really apply to me), how sick one is (and the bodily fluids they are spewing at any given moment), the sports he/she is watching, the food he/she is eating, and other drivel about one's life. Ugh. If this is life, I find myself thinking, how can I make it STOP?? I feel like Atlas carrying the weight of everyone's life on my shoulders.

Seriously, this site has drained my passion.

So, I'm not going to do any of those status updates anymore. I think I will keep my account, but just to stay connected.

Otherwise, I would like to spend more time in quiet meditation (i.e., self-induced altered states of consciousness), active in the sunshine, going to FREE yoga classes at my new workplace (!), and connecting with others in my current community--because, as obnoxious as Orange County is to me, it IS where I currently abide, so I might as well make the best of it. For example, on Sunday there is a drum circle being held at the place where I work (right at the end of my workday...perfect!), and there are movie nights and workshops, etc. Why would I not participate in these things?!

Looking forward to it.

I'm also looking forward to trimming down in other areas--i.e., material things, expenditures...

The mental cleansing always accompanies a cleansing in the material world, eh?